Feeling Proud

On Saturday my 5 year old son had his first Jui Jitsu Tournament through NAGA. He has been training at my sister’s gym, Hybrid Fit Gym, since December 2017. He was training MMA until this past January. He started Jui Jitsu and fell in love.

My brother in law is his Coach and has told me multiple times that he has a natural talent. It warms my heart to hear those kind words. My sister and brother in law approached me about this tournament and at first I said absolutely not. I was so nervous to have him compete because I didn’t want him to get hurt. He had only been training for a month and I didn’t think he could possibly be ready in such a short time.

After being asked by my brother in law and my son for 2 weeks I finally gave in and said yes. We woke up at the crack of dawn and made the long drive to the tournament. We got to see other kids competing no-gi and gi. It did not help to reassure me or calm my nerves. It was very interesting to watch but I was not ready for my son to compete.

When it was my son’s turn to go I was so nervous. I felt like my heart was beating out of my chest. He had to go against 2 kids. I told him that it didn’t matter if he won or lost as long as he tried his best and listened to his coach.

Well he tried his best and listened to his coach and won. He got first place in his weight bracket. It was incredible to watch. He has grown up so much. I don’t watch him practice at the gym because he can get distracted easily. So I didn’t get to see how well he did. He was so proud of himself and so happy that he actually won. He got to choose either a gold medal or a sword. Well he is a 5 year old kid so of course he chose a sword.

I am still feeling so proud. He truly amazes me every day. He has shown such great commitment and determination. I look forward to his other tournaments. Hopefully in May he’ll be competing again!!!

The start of a short story.

I look at the town I’ve called home for most of my as I drive down Main Street. As I approach the last intersection heading out of town I stop at the final stop sign. I look in the rear view mirror and ask myself if I’m ready to do this. To change things forever. To truly be on my own. I put on my turn signal and push the gas heading to my new future.

After driving for two hours, I have to stop and get gas. Before I left I emptied all the bank accounts. All I had to pay with was cash so I wouldn’t be tracked. I pull on my baseball cap and jacket and head inside.

At the counter, the cashier, a young female in her early twenties, smiled at me as I approached. “Good afternoon”, she said still smiling. “Hello”, I answered back hoping she wouldn’t ask too many questions because I didn’t have the right answer. “Fifty on pump five please”, I say to her handing over the cash. “Of course. Where are you headed”, she asked ringing up my gas. “Just following the roads. A spontaneous vacation”, I say quickly just wanting to get out of there before she got suspicious. “Have a good one”, she said as I left to pump my gas.

The pump was all set to go when I got back to my car and I prayed that it wouldn’t take too long to get back on the road. I only had five more hours to get as much distance between me and my hometown. I had to go as far as I could before I was found to be gone. I that I’m six hours it wouldn’t be safe for me. I finished pumping and jumped in my car.

I had no idea where to go but I knew I had to just keep going forward. The further I went the easier it would be to start over. At the next red light I decided to turn right and follow that as far as I could. Wherever I ended up by night fall is where I would start my life over.

I stopped every two hours to fuel up. I didn’t stop to eat because I didn’t want to be seen by too many people. I had to keep my exposure to a minimum. I couldn’t let anyone identify who I was.

By five o’clock I was starting to get nervous. I knew in the next hour it was going to be discovered that I was gone and I just couldn’t risk being found. I had to just keep going as fast and far as I possibly could.

Nightfall arrived as I entered Crestwood Kentucky. “Well”, I said as I looked in the rear view mirror, “this is it. This is where I start over new.” I set out looking for a place to rest up before I had to find somewhere to establish myself.

This is my start of a short story that I am hoping to submit to a writing contest. How does it sound so far? I have some research to do so I can continue writing. Any input is welcomed.

Time Management and Getting Organized

Before I had kids I was a neat freak. Everything had to be cleaned and organized a certain way in order for me to be able to function. I also would keep a schedule to keep my time managed. Life felt functional.

After having my first son I tried to keep things organized the way I had them before and it just wasn’t realistic anymore. Now I’m 3 kids in and feel like my life is chaotic. I am having such a hard time finding enough time in the day to get everything done. My house is never organized to the level I would prefer. It is clean by others standards but I still feel like it’s a mess. I don’t like clutter and there are piles of clutter in my house.

Today is a crazy day for me. I’ve been up since 6:30. Its 10 now and I have gotten nothing done aside from taking my daughter to her doctors appointment and dog sitting for my mother.

How do my fellow parents manage to get anything done? What are your secrets to success? Tips are more than welcome 😊

Some Exciting News!!!

I got a freelance writing job!!! I don’t believe it is paid but that is totally fine with me. This will give me more experience and will help build my portfolio. I really am so excited to write my first blog post. I get to choose my own topics and be as creative as I want. What more can I ask for?

I know I sound childish right now, but this is something I have wanted for so long. I applied to so many different businesses and finally got hired. I really hope this works out for me. This is the good luck I’ve been needing for so long. I feel like I’m walking on air. I got hired Wednesday and have been in such an amazing mood.

I have not told anyone yet so telling you, my followers, is such a big step. I plan to tell my husband tonight when we are finally able to sit down and spend quality time after a busy stressful week.

I will not be looking at my blog until Monday because I will be spending the weekend writing and working on my first post! Please wish me luck.

I hope you all have had an amazing week and have a wonderful weekend. I will be back on Monday. Good luck with your journeys and god bless 🙏😊

Feeling Nervous

Hello! Today I am feeling extremely nervous. I have spent the last few weeks applying for freelance opportunities. Since applying, I have spent every minute waiting anxiously by my computer to get emails. Every day brought the dreaded feeling of disappointment when I received nothing or got an email stating they would let me know.

Today I decided to get out of my own head and get out of the house. As you all might know, I have 3 little ones so I decided to let them decide the activities for the day. We have watched cartoons, spent an hour playing at the library, and 45 minutes getting fresh air. I was having so much fun that I almost forgot what I was feeling anxious for. Almost…..

I received a message while my children were napping asking me to fill out a more detailed application. This application called for a writing sample. Usually I am confident when it comes to writing. Essays, articles, notes, cards, even my blog posts never faxed me. But this writing sample made me nervous. All of a sudden everything became real.

The possibility of this job became a reality. It took me over an hour to compose this sample. I still did not want to send it. I called my youngest sister to listen and give me input. She reassured me that is was very well written and in her words “legit”. It still took me a half an hour longer to submit my application.

I was and am still very nervous. My heart is beating out of my chest and my hands are sweaty and shaking. I have a million thoughts going through my head. I know rejection is normal and part of the process, but I am secretly, or not so secretly hoping that it’s an acceptance instead.

In my worrying state I forgot to save my writing sample for my portfolio. Is it unprofessional to ask for a copy? 😂

How do you cope with this nerve wracking and anxious feeling? How do you move forward after each rejection?

Making Crafts to Sell

It has been recommended to me to make crafty things to sell. I have been told this would be a perfect stay at home job to do so I can still be home with my kids but make some extra money on the side.

I’ve decided to give it a god. I love making hand made things and prefer them to give as gifts. It would also be a good way to get my kids involved. They also like to make crafty things so they can help me.

My question to you is what types of things would you buy? I would love some ideas of popular things to make.

Becoming More Self Sufficient

After reading The Nightingale and watching many tv shows, I have decided to try and change my life style a bit. I’m The Nightingale by Kristin Hannah, she writes of WWII when Germany took over France. This leaves the French with little for themselves. They had to learn to survive and be self sufficient. I have also watched many tv shows where some extreme event occurs and people are forced to make the change to self sufficiency for survival. This got me thinking about my lifestyle and what I would do in these situations. I have decided that I would like to make changes now for many reasons.

I do not believe that an extreme event will occur so I am not planning for that. I feel that my family could benefit from living more simply and perhaps doing more for ourselves. My children would have a blast with making their own things. I have decided to start a vegetable garden this year. Every year I plant a flower garden. My flowers grow so beautifully. My children love to help me weed the garden and watch the plants grow. I know they would love to also grow our own food. This would make things a little easier in my house so we would be saving some money at the grocery store and it will teach my kids valuable life lessons.

I would also love to make my own soaps and cleaners so they are more natural and save on waste. I am big into sustainability and have been trying to make small changes as much as I possibly can.

The downfall is I have no idea where to begin. I have begun to do some research, but I am not a farmer so this is all so new to me. I know I will find the information with some work. I am also aware that this years crops may not be the best and may fail. I plan to keep trying until I succeed.

If anyone knows anything about gardening, self sufficiency, or sustainability any advice is welcome. This is totally new to me so I appreciate any input good or bad. Thank you in advance!

Second Book Club Meeting

Yesterday was the second meeting of the book club I joined. The book assigned was The Nightingale by Kristin Hannah. This book was amazing. I have never read any of her work, but I was told that this book was a good start.

I’m not here to do a book review. This book was very well written and I recommend it to anyone who likes historical fiction. I have even decided to read it for a second time because it affected me strongly.

After the first book club meeting I wasn’t sure if I liked it but vowed to try again to get more of an opinion. As you know, I am the youngest individual in this group. I don’t mind that because I have found that I get along better with people older than me. My family has always teased me and said I was an old woman in a young persons body. After this meeting I still have not decided if I enjoy it or just use it as an excuse to get out of the house once a month. The other women in the group are intelligent and wise. I do enjoy hearing their stories of their pasts and how they have grown and changed. We do have lengthy discussions about the characters and story plot. What I have found I do not enjoy is how many stories are told about Facebook.

I have a Facebook and an instagram so social media is not foreign to me. I do not use them much though. I have them mostly to stay in touch with family that doesn’t live close to me. These women are retired so they are in their 70s. Two women are in their late 40s. But I am just shocked with how obsessed they are with social media. They also talk about how they can’t leave the house without their smart phones. I am an old fashioned type person. I have a cell phone because I do not have a house phone. If people have to get ahold of me that’s how they do it. I prefer to read paper copies of books. I write in notebooks. I even hand write letters to my husband. I do not look down on anyone who thinks different than me. The only judgment I have is how sad it is that we have become so attached to technology that the older generation feels they need to also be attached to it to have a connection with family.

Overall, I have a positive opinion about the book club and will go to the next meeting to see if I enjoy it. I do hope that Facebook is not the big topic of discussion.

How do you feel about technology? Have we gotten too attached? Are doomed as a nation to be slaves to social media and smartphones?

Facing Challenges

As part of my Journey to Happiness and Self Discovery, I have decided to try and pursue my writing as well as new hobbies that may interest me. As part of my writing, I have been looking for writing jobs that I can do from home. Unfortunately I have not found any legit ones. I have watched countless webinars that are supposed to help steer you in the right direction but they all just want you to sign up for their course so they can make $300 to $500 to give you information they had to figure out on their own. I am not against people taking these courses because they are probably quite helpful and that is someone’s income so they need you to sign up. I, however, will not spend that much money. I also do not have that kind of money to spend on something.

My question to all of you is, where did you begin with your search if you work from home? Any advice would be great. I am also currently working on my own writing. I would prefer to work from home so I can continue with my own writing as well as be there for my children.

Another idea that my family has suggested is making crafty things and selling them. I make home made gifts for people, so that could be a possibility. But, like anything there are pros and cons to everything. I am not looking for any scams. What are suggestions?

Thank you all for taking the time to read. I hope you have a wonderful Friday. Yay for the weekend!

Happy Valentine’s Day

When I was younger, I did not celebrate Valentine’s Day. I did not agree with the commercialism surrounding the holiday. I figured that if you really care about someone then you would show them everyday not just once a year. I had boyfriends who were disappointed that I did not find this holiday important.

Now, as a wife and a mother, I still feel that we should show our love all year which I do with my family. But, having kids has made me want to celebrate the holiday. I make sure my kids and my husband know how loved they are all year long, but I like to take this day to do a little extra for them. To give them something they can’t normally have. I don’t allow my kids to eat many sweets it junk food but today I allowed them to have some candy so that was a special treat for them.

I look forward to all holidays so I can “spoil” the special people in my life. I hope everyone had a great day even if they do not celebrate this holiday.