Hello! Today I am feeling extremely nervous. I have spent the last few weeks applying for freelance opportunities. Since applying, I have spent every minute waiting anxiously by my computer to get emails. Every day brought the dreaded feeling of disappointment when I received nothing or got an email stating they would let me know.
Today I decided to get out of my own head and get out of the house. As you all might know, I have 3 little ones so I decided to let them decide the activities for the day. We have watched cartoons, spent an hour playing at the library, and 45 minutes getting fresh air. I was having so much fun that I almost forgot what I was feeling anxious for. Almost…..
I received a message while my children were napping asking me to fill out a more detailed application. This application called for a writing sample. Usually I am confident when it comes to writing. Essays, articles, notes, cards, even my blog posts never faxed me. But this writing sample made me nervous. All of a sudden everything became real.
The possibility of this job became a reality. It took me over an hour to compose this sample. I still did not want to send it. I called my youngest sister to listen and give me input. She reassured me that is was very well written and in her words “legit”. It still took me a half an hour longer to submit my application.
I was and am still very nervous. My heart is beating out of my chest and my hands are sweaty and shaking. I have a million thoughts going through my head. I know rejection is normal and part of the process, but I am secretly, or not so secretly hoping that it’s an acceptance instead.
In my worrying state I forgot to save my writing sample for my portfolio. Is it unprofessional to ask for a copy? 😂
How do you cope with this nerve wracking and anxious feeling? How do you move forward after each rejection?