I don’t want to be a Debby downer, but I have always found writing to be very therapeutic. It helps me to get my thoughts out.
I like to think I’m a pretty optimistic person. I try to smile even when my depression rears its ugly face. Today was not one of those days where I could act like everything was okay.
A side note, I am a huge family person. I try to keep a close bond with family because they have helped me through a lot and I owe them for being there when I needed them. This post is not intended to show any dislike to my family. I simply am not pleased with the situation.
Part of my New Years resolution was to say no when it’s not necessary and a lot of what I have to say no to is my family. So in a way I have blocked out some negativity. My mother called me today and after this phone call I felt worse than I have in a couple months. I don’t feel that I need to go into specifics. My afternoon was filled with junk food and binge watching Netflix.
I finally got to a place where I was happier. I was okay with the fact that I finally took a stand for my life and am doing what I want to. Unfortunately, my mother chooses to remind me every chance she gets that I am a failure and have gone nowhere in life. I know she is wrong. I look at my kids and feel so much pride. They truly are my greatest accomplishment and blessing.
Well thank you all for taking the time to read this post. I look forward to continuing my journey and living my happiest life.